I have been self conscious for some time... a worrier, why wasn't I this or that? What do people think of me compared to... whoever? Today I allowed those feelings to all come out. As I was thinking, crying, mad on the way home I started talking to God. What was the matter with me? Why did I allow what I thought other people thought of me to control me?
God reminded me of a time when I wasn't so self conscious. I wasn't always worried about what everyone else said or thought about me.. or even what I thought they thought. I asked Him what was different. If anything I should be more confident in this stage in my life. I know who I am, who my friends are. I love my family and my career. But there is one big difference.... the time I spend, or don't spend, with Him.
It was not self confidence I needed. What I need is to re center my life around Christ. For when my life is centered around Christ, there is a peace. Peace that no one, no thing can take away. Peace that I long to get back to.
Galatians 2:20
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer life, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
